This is not a poem about
trust
but I save my mind
for beginnings
Forgetting fear
is like a hobby
walking with me
screaming at you
Howling condemnation
without knowing me
I am calm
You are a bomb
Sanctity is propelling us
But there is not glue
holding us
together
I only stay here
Because of fear
That god in the rear
will not disappear
I take my structure
into languishing parties…
Telling them I need:
Validation
I need synchronized wins
I cannot handle
the dark cloud
eating me
they can serve
their lust
on trays
to us
Because psych ward food is good
their book shelves
are nearly virgin
their workers are honest
Security comes and goes
you can be assaulted anywhere
but take your mind
into your heart
and do not share it
Here:
If we focus too much
It is perseverating
But trust is limited
You cannot be sure
what you feel
because
There is honestly just too much blood
My family
is not structured well
So I do not trust the gifts
from my mother
Forcefields laugh at me
I tell them
Try it without
anything at all
I do not trust anyone
except for the air
the greenery
the writings…
Even the trees feel
Even the people–
can stand idle
So I am here:
To do good by each
I motivate
Unlike others
From fumes
but across the sky
I will ply my powers
Across truth hood
without needing
Anything at all
Fear will kill so much
But I’ve seen more
than has been welcomed
And I absolutely just bury it.
I do want to have
featured works
everywhere
But the dark cloud makes itself known
there is progress
in this ingress
of entering wild messes
exhuming torment
They did not know
That I am the subject,
of an experiment,
so anyway:
It is all okay
I pledge to recognize and understand
and react
without
any feelings that are bad
Sacrifice is without
or within
but never
total
And I know,
to never ever,
give up.
Forgive me.